We are 7 weeks into this whole baby thing and life couldn't be sweeter. She is just perfect... and we are having a blast at being new parents.
I feel extremely fortunate to have the daughter that I do. She has been such a blessing already to us in her little life. I can't wait for all whats to come, but I'm definitely enjoying the place where she is. (in bed.. j/k)
It's so funny to me that all the horror stories I've heard from random people (usually clients) and what is portrayed on television have been so blown out of proportion. I was always told that having a baby would be the hardest thing I would ever do. And yes its true that it's hard... but i heard it so much that I would think.. "then why have a kid if its such torture?"
I know I've already written about all the doubters of my choice to have a natural drug free birth. And I know I had it easy, in that my first labor and birth was fast. But I look back knowing that I used all the knowledge I had learned over my pregnancy, and that I was prepared and unafraid for the task that God had prepared me for. And I believe with all my heart that it's possible.
So being a mom is possible too. I can see now how God has been preparing me. Gosh! same thing when I got married! People said.. "you think you know Naz now?" or "Marriage is so rough" And again... yeah sometimes I don't like Naz very much.. but I wouldn't trade him for anything. And because we were prepared, and because I actually did know him well... the transition into marriage wasn't bad at all. It was the natural progression of our relationship.
And now I see that the same thing has happened with this little girl. Naz felt so different the day she was born... but not me. Again I saw it as the natural progression from each day that had gone before during the pregnancy. So that when she came, I felt like... "of course! i've been a mom all along"
What a joy it is to know you have Gods plan for your life. And for me that includes this little girl. One who is not easy... who loves to cry for no reason.. who doesn't like the car?... but has the best smile in town. Knowing that God has prepared me.. and will continue to prepare me for each little step.. is definite relief.
I just love this post. So much. What a great reminder; funny that even after a few kids having this new one is bringing me back to feeling inadequate, as in "How in the world am I going to be able to handle all this?!" But this is ordained by God and I know he won't leave me (thankful also for a husband who won't either!! I mean with all the crap I've put him through he would've left by now! :)
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