the last day.

lacy left this afternoon. thank God my bff brandy could come with us to help on the drive back from the airport... and to stay with the car while i took lacy to the gate. it was fun having her here but i'm glad things are back to normal for now. i'm very used to being alone and doing our thing... 10 days is a long time. so now i just need to clean the house and get ready for the rest of the week to finish nice. i'm going in to work tomorrow to help with the phones and then i have a client on saturday. i really need to start putting my energy into getting more clients. but i got this job like a week before lacy came so now i should have the time to put into going around and leaving my cards in the local shops. sorry that this is kind of a rant. its just been a stressful month. but God is faithful to take care of us. and He'll bring the clients in... and He will bless my work.

i'm looking forward to getting some time to read my books. i was on a roll there for a while... and i really want to finish the one i'm reading now. its called 'let the great world spin' my brother gave it to me to read.

tonight we're having soyrizo with tofu tacos. easy. quick. delish. i just gotta get up and start cleaning. praise the Lord its been cool today. keeps the fatigue away.

anarchist much?

well i did it. went into the salon today for a class... and had connie chop it off. i even saved the chunk of hair. i really like it.. and i'm glad i did it. i forget though until i reach for my head.. or look in a mirror and then i remember.

tonight we had chinese food... and i can't believe i used to eat this stuff all the time. its just so sweet and doesn't quite feel like a meal. i think i'm gonna go make some eggs or something. and never eat it again. i want a falafel pita.

its only 7:45 and i wanna go to bed. i'm just sleepy. but i know if i took a nap now.. it would be over. i would be cranky as something. gotta push thru till at least 10:30. can't buy me love is gonna have to pull me through. oh... i think it can. in the near future i will be listing my 80's teen genre favorites. what are yours? top 10?

rainier shine

heres my gem for today. i can't believe i've never had them before. i went to my favorite store ever for groceries today and there was guy inside selling newspaper subscriptions. lately.. i'll talkto anyone. since i've been running low on friends lately.. first he thought i was 15. pft. then looks in my basket making sure i bought some rainier cherries. i hadn't so he made me go over and try one.. he was right. they are the bomb. (yeah i said it) so i exchanged the gross red cherries for these clusters of heaven.. and went my way (along with a paper subscription of corse).

naz's little sister is in town so naz took her to a water p

ark today. it was nice to be by myself. i've gotten really used to it. i like thinking about what i want to do and the projects i have in my head. there are so many. i know im not the most creative person ever but i aspire to be. and if i can keep creating i don't feel like i'm falling behind.

i've decided i really want to go on a vacation. i've decided that a long time ago i know... but it's something i think about a lot. maybe i'll be like seinfeld and take a vacation from myself. but i can't grow a mustache... so.. maybe i should shave a side of my head.

july so far

the weather here in LA has been awesome. its been cool in the mornings.. overcast. and then warms up enough to spend the afternoon in the pool. i don't know how its been in san diego.. but this great. i'm sure its going to heat up like crazy in the next month or so.. but its been nice so far.

naz's sister lacy is coming to visit and we get to go to disneyland. the last time i went i was pretty sick.. so i'm hoping this time will be better. i'm looking forward to just spending time there. its fun just soaking it all in.

tomorrow is the world cup final. and i'm sick of people complaining about people who are into it. its like the olympics. who cares about gymnastics for 3 years? and then everyone cares during those 2 weeks and its a lot of fun. anyways.. spain is in the final and i'm so excited about. so watch the game.. and root for spain.

oh yeah... and naz got that job. i knew he could do. and when i say he. i mean He. Jesus. God the Father. Holy Ghost. we are still waiting to see if we'll get a raise... so the prayer goes on. of corse we want the raise.. but we want to be content with whatever the Lord gives us, and to be good stewards.

the other day we heard on the news about how prices for houses are at an all time low. so we started looking up houses in our area.. and there are actually some that are decent. who knows if we could buy a house anytime soon.. but it sure is fun to look and to dream of one day having our own place. my dream in life is to have my own washer and dryer. maybe while at disneyland i can make a wish for my dream to come true.

freedom.

yeah we have freedom in this country.. yeah we need to be reminded that others don't. but what about our hearts? is there freedom there? are we truly free and living like it?

while down in san diego some jehovah witness' came to the door.. and it got us all thinking. jamie found this website made by a guy who had been one for years. he had written his testimony out and the biggest thing that impacted me was his lack of freedom. he talks about how he never felt like he was good enough for God. that his hours and hours of service were not worthy, and he should be doing more. i know i have had been told that lie and believed it, and a life like that is bondage. even as a believer we still try and work for our own salvation, we work to perfect ourselves. and we will never be good enough and never feel like it either.

Matt 11:28-30 "come to me all who labor and are heavy laden and I will give you rest. take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart and you will find rest for your souls. for my yoke is easy and my burden is light."

Christ has done the work, paid the price, and has set us free. truly free. no longer are we slaves to sin, no longer do we have to worry about being good enough. cuz we aren't.. only now.. we have the righteousness of Christ instead of our own. this is true freedom. a freedom that can never be taken away. a freedom that is not conditional.

happy 4th of july everyone.

swimming

so since my bout of hypothyroidism i've gained about 30 pounds. its a totally weird feeling to know in your head that your gaining weight and not being able to do anything about it. there were a few months i could hardly walk around my apartment... let alone work out.

so with all that behind me (kinda of.. not 100% but maybe 85%?) i've started weight watchers again. im on my 4th week of it.. and lost about 4 pounds so far. so now its time to kick it up to high gear.. (or as high as i can go) we have about 2 months before we go on our vacation and i wanna be ready. i'm being realistic that i probably won't loose 20 pounds in 2 months.. but i wanna be close. and its giving me something to shoot for. our pool is right outside our living room window so i've been making it a point to get in every day and do as many laps as possible. so heres hoping for this being a great week.

wow its been a while.

after reading my best friend carly's long awaited update.. i realized it had been even longer since i posted a blog. soooo much has been going on. i don't even know where to start.

naz: hes so rad. and having so much fun at work. he interviewed for another position at columbia, but we are just waiting to see if he gets it. if he does it would be great. he really likes the guy he would work for and feels that he would love to learn what he does. it would also be more of a secure position which always rules.

me: i got a job! i dunno if i wrote about my last job... i accepted a receptionist position at a salon around my birthday. it was suppose to be a two day a week gig... and it was going great.. but something happened with the male owner and i dont know what happened.. but he suddenly decided that he didn't like me.. and so i was asked to leave. it was the weirdest thing ever. but at least it gave us some extra cash to replenish some of our savings that we've been living off... and it also put the idea of doing hair back into my head.

when doing hair completely relies upon clients. it makes it difficult to jump right in without the right set up.

i sent my resume into a salon from a post on craigslist and she called me. i went in to talk to her and it was just perfect. its a brand new salon with only 4 chairs. its in a trendy spot in burbank, and she's giving me commission. commission allows me to build my clientele without the stress of booth rent. that weekend i got a friend to model for me and i was in. last week was my first week and i had 3 clients already! it feels so good to be in a salon again. i loved my salon in san diego, and now i feel like im home again.

the future: we are looking forward to this summer. naz's little sister is coming to visit which means fun, sun and fun. i even bought a star map so we can stalk the movie stars.

we are also planning a vacation. since our honeymoon.. we really haven't had a vacation. besides a few weekends.. so we are looking into going to mexico. im very. really. really. excited about it. i just hope it works out.

wow. this has been a lot. and i could have mentioned more! haha. oh well. theres always tomorrow. Lord willing.