19 weeks.

time is still flying. as i sit here knowing it's been a week... i wonder. what the heck do i do all day?

saturday i know was a beautiful day. but it ended up that we stayed inside pretty much the whole day. we thought... what a beautiful day for a drive up the coast to visit our best friends in santa barbara. so we decided to go on sunday. well... sunday was raining. but the thought of being in the house another day didn't go over to well with naz. so we got in the car and startedthe drive. even in the rain it was beautiful. it cleared up by the time we got next to the ocean... and it was so worth it. there is something so refreshing about seeing those waves and smelling the salt in the air. we picked our friends up outside their church and went to eat at pizza guru. so yum. i had to go potty so badly when we got there but naz beat me to it. he was taking a while... and i was starting to dance. i finally got in and noticed what had taken him so long. the walls were a chalkboard.. and he wrote on the door "joy joy is encienta" and had some other drawings around it. so cute. it was so nice to just be able to go up and see our friends for lunch and then come home.

we got home and i didn't feel too well so that was the end of our weekend. it got cold pretty quickly.. so i think my body was fighting the cold.

one more week till we find out the sex of the baby. naz is counting down the days.

baby: hair is starting to grow on its head. as a hairstylist.. this makes me happy. i just know its going to be the sweetest little hair ever. and i don't think i'll be one of those people who dye their kids hair. random thought... but a thought indeed.

momma: other then feeling pretty sluggish sunday and monday. i've been doing good. i've been sleeping just fine and being able to handle my days.

babywise

i just finished the first chapter of baby wise. and i already feel confident. bonus right? the first chapter was about how important the marriage relationship it to raising children. and that keeping that relationship is top priority. how confident and secure children feel when knowing that their parents love and support each other.

i remember growing up.. i always loved to see my parents kiss. i just remember getting such a kick out of it.. for whatever reason. we all would laugh so hard when dad would grab mom in the kitchen... and mom would pretend to be mad. of course we saw them fight.. but we also saw them make up. it's funny to now be reminded of all those little instances in my childhood that might have just made up ordinary days... but those are the things that actually shaped me into who i am.. it wasn't the house we lived in or the car we drove.. it was our family unit. being apart of a group that was lead by a loving marriage.

onto chapter 2.

18 weeks.

every week it blows me away. just what we've gotten ourselves into.

i don't think i'll ever get used to this. haha.

this week was great though. it flew by. i'm sure it will slow down toward the end of the pregnancy... but right now it is not. it might be because we are looking forward to finding out if the baby is a boy or girl. so maybe after that time will start to crawl.

did i mention hawaii yet? we are going in just a few weeks.. i think its 5? with how time has been it will feel like we are going tomorrow. my only thing before we go is i need to get some clothes. i haven't bought any maternity clothes yet... but i feel like i'm wearing the same 4 outfits. so i am looking forward to getting some new dresses that will be cute and actually fit before we fly. word on the street is that forever 21 has maternity clothes.. but only in select stores. so i am going to have to hit that up. i wonder if H&M does. they have to by now right? whateves. i just want cute and cheap. doesn't everyone?

*update. h&m DOES carry maternity clothes. and the northridge mall carries it. alls i want is some skinny jeans that will fit. i bought some jeggings... they are ok.. but i had to get a size too big to fit around the waist.. but now they don't look skinny. they look baggy. blerg. blerggy.

no picture this week... as of yet. maybe tomorrow since i have to actually dress nicely. we.. (the salon) is going to a wella class at the academy. so maybe a picture tomorrow.

baby: getting big! the nerd is gaining fat now under its little skin.

momma: my appetite is coming back which is nice. i like not being grossed out by food. and my energy levels are much better. i think yoga is really helping. feeling awesome.

17 weeks. pictures and flutters.

i've been trying hard to distinguish the movement of the baby these last days. i think i'm getting better at it. i mostly feel them at night. i was really worried that i wasn't going to like it. i know you might be thinking.. what? who doesn't want to feel them? but the answer is me. i think its the unknown. and i'm not a fan of that. but when i think i do feel the nerd... it is pretty cool.

today my friend jennifer took some shots of me on the side of the road and i think they are going to come out really great. i am so blessed to have all these friends who are photographers. i want to get them all to take some so that i have different perspectives at different points in my pregnancy.

i am so glad that my energy has been returning. i was a little worried there for a bit. naz had off on monday so we ended up having a pretty packed weekend. we ran every errand that naz wanted to do. and i was able to keep up. sure i went to bed at 10 last night... but it felt great being active again. and not such a couch potato.

16.4

so i used to do yoga a while ago.. and it really helped my back and my flexibility. since i didn't have any. and i started to realize that i was back to not being very flexible. doing hair also makes my shoulders always rest at about my ears.. hence.. tension headaches. so. with the thought of a the impending birth of my child.. and the fact that my hips are already in a lot of pain. i thought to myself. i should be doing something.

yesterday i went to my first yoga class in forever. i chose this place by my house because they offer a few classes a week. since my schedule changes due to work. so i knew i would be able to go at least once a week. i went in and was the only person there for the class! so i got a private lesson. i can already tell the effects. my hips haven't been in pain and i got home with so much energy. that doesn't mean other parts of me aren't soar.

so we are going again today. and i hope and pray that it helps prepare my body for what it is going to have to do. haha.

16 weeks.

this morning i thought i didn't have much to say. but things turned around.

got to my dr. appointment a bit late, so feeling bad i parked in the building that only has valet instead of parking down the street a few blocks. but of course i still had to wait for 30 min before being called. and then another 15 in the room. all to just hear the baby's heart beat for about 8 seconds. blerg. oh well. nothing new to report with the doc. just checking my thyroid levels this time and again declining all their stupid tests.

but i did get

to book my appointment for the big 20 week ultrasound where we get to find out if it's a boy or girl. so that will be loads of fun. naz and i can't wait. i mostly am looking forward to it cuz i get to see him! (or her) it still just seems like such a far off idea that we are actually having a baby. so i look forward to seeing something more tangible.

on my way to the appointment my sister called me and said she was thinking about driving up. and drove up she did. got here around 3pm and its been so nice seeing the babies. judah (1yr and 1 month) took a whole bunch of steps here. until now he had only taken 2 or 3 at a time. so that was really fun to see. Noah (5) thinks we are having a boy and that we should name him "hop scotch".

its been really cold and cloudy out so the best light was in the bathroom.

15 weeks.

i can't believe its already 15 weeks. it seems to be going so fast. but i know those last few months are going to feel like they are dragging on... so i'll take the fast pace now.

new years was really low key this year. naz and i went over to our friends the mememarian's. the four of us played clue and cards. and min before midnight we went up on the freezing roof to wait for the fire works from universal studios. none of us brought a clock so no countdown. but it was more of a surprise that way. as soon as we saw fireworks.. we knew. naturally naz screamed obvious facts of the new year off the roof while we all laughed and drank our hot pear cider.

it's fun to think that we already know that this year is going to be crazy. not only the baby, but we are going to be going to hawaii. and we want to start the process of buying our first home. who knows if that will happen...but it would be rad if it did. but this year is going to be huge in our life. and to know that in advance is a look that you don't normally get in life. i'll take it.

baby: the nerd is over 4 inches long! i've been trying to be really still so that i can feel it. but who knows when i will. but i'll keep trying.

mom: my energy has been on the rise. but i still really like to sleep. and going to bed early. i just need a little bit more to make dinner every night.

i'll have to add a picture later. too lazy. :)